Monday - [sigh]

Yes - I know I should make the most of the time here and now and not introspect on things over which I have no control.. and Yes, I could do better than I do caring for the people I love.. and Yes, I do think that I could do more.. and Yes, there are times when I think that life is really unfair - on so many levels.. and Yes, I know that this is probably a terminal case of self-indulgent nonsense..

Good things happened at the weekend
I spent time with my children
I talked at length with my best friend
My sister ran another ½ Marathon PB (she's got the family PB!!!)
Other friends ran well in their races
I had a heart-warming conversation with someone, which really made me smile
I ran with L'il Prof - and we chatted about all sorts, and his face was shining the whole time - he looked so happy
Princess never stopped hugging me and telling me how she loved me
Mr Speedy was really relaxed and smiley
And for the most part - they didn't try to kill each other either!!!

But time is SO limited in life - and no matter how hard we try (or in retrospect, how much more we could have tried) - there are not enough hours in the day to do everything.

And it somehow doesn't seem fair.

Last night I was so sad...
My children were not there, and they had left a big hole, as they always do when I take them back.. and I was missing them so much, it hurt. And it was the little things that made it so. The little glance here, a look there, a word, a smell, a hug, a thank you..
I was worried about two of my friends, for very different reasons, neither of which I could do anything about..

Did I give my all to those I love
Not to my mind, no

and that's just not good enough.

And yet - I am one of the richest people I know
I love with all my heart
I have incredible friends
three outstanding and beautiful children
A lady who loves me completely.

What do I have to complain about really..?
Not a thing..


Like I said - self-indulgent nonsense....